Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Transition...

Ok, I'll warn you. This post - I'm not really sure where it's going. Lots of things on my mind today, and I'm sure that some of them I may regret saying here.

1. The election. Honestly, I am thrilled. I know I said a few posts ago that I would leave politics out of this space, but right now I am not sure that I can. From the moment I heard Obama at the 2004 DNC, I have been energized by his vision and his passion. I certainly don't agree with all of his politics or beliefs, but I believe that he has the ability to lead our country in a direction that renews hope and inspires us to take care of each other. He makes me want to be a better, more involved person, and gives me hope that once again the rest of the world will see us for the amazing people that we can be.

2. The election. I know that there are people that I care deeply about that are hurting right now. That the results rock them to the core, and that their fear about the morality and direction of our country are real and genuine. I understand that hurt and the raw nerves irritated by the celebration they perceive all around them. We all only want what we believe is best for our country, and sometimes that looks very different for different people. I don't want them to be hurting.

3. Fall's grand finale. As I pulled into our subdivision this afternoon, the trees are decidedly more bare than they were yesterday. The amazing colors and crisp fall smell are on their way out, and will soon be replaced with grey. That's a tough pill to swallow.

4. My baby's birthday. At the end of this month, my baby will be one. And with the surfacing of two molars and increased babbling/copying of sounds, it is all too evident that the toddler stage is fast approaching. Knowing that this is our last child, this is feeling all too fast. In so many ways, I wish I could re-live this last year over and over and over again. I love this baby part of their lives and the reality is that it's almost done.

You know? It's all about transition. And when I look at it written out that way, no wonder I'm feeling off today. I've never been good with change. The interminable election coming to a close, the awkwardness of bipartisan relationships that an election highlights, the onset of winter, and the end of an important part of our lives. That's a lot for little old me.

So don't mind me. Like my oldest, I have trouble with transitions. I'll make them, but not easily. Give me a few days to catch up.

In the meantime, here's a little cuteness:

3 comments:

j.yue said...

i was feeling off today too. many of these things and changes also affecting me. thanks for writing this. it has helped me process the day a bit better...oh and i vote megan for our next president!

Jennie M said...

look at that little man!

emily said...

(I am just now finally catching up on my blogs... so I just read this, 12 days later... So wistful, but so TRUE. I completely sympathize with the end of true Autumn... and the speed of this fist year with my baby... and the deep longing to be able to go back and relive and rewatch so many parts of this last year...

I don't handle change well, either... hope you are coming back to some sort of equilibrium...